My journey of healing and love.
blue autumn sky
october afternoon
leaves dance a möbius strip
across the water’s edge
& teeth pierce the skin of the juiciest red apple
I loved you when my heart broke and we smoked in your car.
I loved you when you brought me back by saying “I love you.”
I loved you when we held her as she left from this world.
I loved you when we got lost and forgot who we are.
I love you forever, for always, for being my you.
I struggle to find the right moment in a series of perfect moments.
I search for the perfect time, when the words will tumble out of my mouth and into your heart.
Every moment spent with you is the right moment, and my anxiety whispers, “I’m sure he knows.”
But what if you don’t know?
What if you don’t know how much I care?
I cradle your head in my lap, smooth your hair and whisper “I love you” as you slip into your sleep.
there was a first time
the word
L O V E
was used.
ever since,
we’ve been
chasing stardust,
collecting pennies,
& polishing mirrors.
now we know
when the universe ends,
we’ll be ready for curtains
and walk offstage
holding hands.
Burn myself into a cinder
I’ll be rising, ever higher
Into fire, wings igniting
Ash is falling, I am rising
Smoke and blood
Snow and ash
Water, fire
Soul and body
I am the Phoenix rising
Star to star
We’ll pay our dues
Then be reborn
And love anew
I am the Phoenix rising
In the center of existence
there is a star that shines
bright with every soul.
Its pulse bleeds music
orchestrated by
the coming together
of all hearts.
The brightest light imaginable
shines forgiveness
acceptance
love.
And across time
energies collide
beautiful imperfection.
A year ago,
a shared joint
between strangers.
Now,
we only share
the tired look
in our eyes.
Only good things are coming,
The wind is changing
There’s a frightened horizon
Banging on the door
The whispers leave footprints
And the moon crescents above
One Day, I Woke Up 